One time I remember
I had ask and prayed
to God that he give me
someone who can ease the
pain I felt inside, then God
really
answer my prayers and he
brings this man to my life, he
gives me an outlet for a lost
love, I even spoiled my
feelings for this guy though I
know time will come that I ’m
going to end this up, There’s
also One time I remember
when he once called me then
he ask if I ’m going to cry
when
I will left him. I didn’t utter
any
word I was idle for a second ,
then he said … coz me … I
will,
… coz (he said)… “In one point
of my life I learned to love
someone like you and in time I
am going to lose someone i
dearly much love and
who will never be mine
forever ”. He told me this a
week before his greatest
revelation. The feeling is
mutual a very unusual for me
knowing that I ’m loving
someone that I owe to have
even in just a span of time.
There are times I attempt and
ask him to avoid me... but
then I still
keep my feet on the ground,
still manage where to stand
and I keep myself on the right
track and know how to follow
the rules for these forbidden
love, in able for me to easily
escape just in case time will
come that we have to reach
the end and no other way for
us but to let go. I know what I
felt for him is right, I can
never chose the person I love,
it just happened, and I believe
it happens with a good
purpose, the feeling is right
but the person is wrong since
he is already committed and
that ’s the irony of life, its my
own prerogative to love him
though its merely wrong at
least in some point of my life I
knew I ’m capable of loving. I
am overwhelmed about what I
am feeling for him. I never
thought that I would come into
this more complicated
relationship, what I have just
thought now is that I am going
to learn from my own
mistakes, and it will never
take me less as a person,
instead it makes me more
Strong and determined to get
what I wanted in life. Fate
gives a twist in my life and I
knew I can escape to this
relationship and there is
nothing to regret about it, coz
I stand up for those I love and
for what I believe is right for
me, I speak what’s on my mind
and I won’t compromise what
is in my heart. I just hope and
prayed that I can be fortunate
to get out on this situation
without any regrets but a
lesson to learn that I will
cherish for the rest of my life.
I would always love to hear
some lyrics from a song ….
“How could something so
wrong feel so right all along”
~ when all you know is that
you are just being in love and
be loved and then in the end
you realize that you are both
the victim of a wrong love … ”
In this case I can’t help but
admit to myself the initial
mistakes I ’ve done, I know I
am responsible for all these, I
know my limitations and I
know that in every situation
there ’s always a reason
behind, I may not never know
it now but soon I will in the
right time. Again I learned to
love someone who I will never
grow up with and never share
the future with me, it hurts I
know but there’s nothing I can
do, he will never be mine and
I have to take all the grudges
of a broken heart. He steals
my heart and I am captured to
fall for him. I don ’t know until
when I’m going to have these
but I am sure once it’s ended,
he will always be in my heart
coz somewhere along the way
we met and loved each other
without any regrets. That ’s it
for now….coz I’m still on
process of getting the best
way out.
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It's been a year already since
he admitted that he is
commited already... It's been
a year already when I decided
to end our relationship for the
sake of doing what is right and
following what my conscience
dictates me to do... It's been a
year already, yet it seems that
it just happend yesterday...